I am 37 and I have come to understand the world is not a place for hard working, honest , dependable, people that enjoy providing the best possible fruits they can labor for a company bigger and better than himself. I have until recently managed to be employed the majority of my life for the last 20 years from everything from sandwich artist to Horticulturist. I was loyal when other companies tried to poch me as a pesticide technician. I was steadfast when COVID hit and I volunteered to work without pay to keep the greenhouses operational when no one would show up for work. I even sacrificed my family and role as a father to my kids to help build another man's dreams and success. The fact a man like me has found himself unemployed and not much to show for it this holiday season leaves me to a point I'm losing faith in this world. I'm having a hard time believing this world has values or rules. It's really starting to feel like everything I've devoted myself too was all a big lie to mill me out and wear me down. But for what. That's my rant thank you for reading.